“Be good and you will be LONESOME”

Today, I was thinking that why there is a need of blogging for me. Blogging may be a source of expressing ideas or sharing views for some people but for me it is just a thing to keep my loneliness away and today I really felt it.

Actually sometimes I wonder what is this loneliness and what is this feeling that in a more stylish way we call  "feeling blue".
When there is no one close to you, to share your feelings, to accompany you in ups and downs of life, its obvious to feel alone but what if everybody is there for you, everybody is trying to share your feelings but you don't want to. You have many friends and that too ready to die for you, acting like a clown to make you happy and what you call it if seeing this you feel more alone more blue?

Actually something in life happens in such a way that after that you just don't want enjoy in life, don't want to smile, don't want to cherish, even you don't want to live anymore. Your own heartbeats makes you feel curse for your life, your own smile makes you feel cry. Where you see happiness, you just want to move away from there. Just want to sit in a corner, totally extracted from the world. But the biggest dilemma arise when people interpret it for your ego and after that you really don't want to make the things clear, your heart just says, let it be like that only. You feel cool in each adverse condition after that.

Thats the reason I like these lines on lonesome...


Be good and you will be lonesome
Be lonesome and you will be free
Live a lie and you will live to regret it
That's what living is to me
-Jimmy Buffett
 




Lonesome. Lonesome.
I know what it means.
Here all by my lonesome,
dreaming empty dreams.
Weary. Weary at the close of day,
wondering if tomorrow brings me joy or sorrow. 
-Leon Redbone



That's Lonesome...



Akshay Raja 

A normal day in my life

Dear All,


        First of all I would like to thank you all my dear friends for appreciating My First Blog and motivating me to write more. I'm feeling very pleasantry to read your comments and that makes me to HOPE more for my DESIRE of making my DESTINY to mould into a true shape.

         Here I'm again with my blog of second day, journey of Hope-Desire-Destiny continues.
I was excited all day today, thought about many issues to write on my blog, to share with you people. Many burning ideas came into my mind but finally I've decided to write as simple as I can, to be in my limit. As far as the thought of LIMITS came itno my mind, I observed a roaring voice suddenly that was trying to say something to me. I look here and there but I found nobody there except me and then I realized that the roaring voice that was exclaiming over me was a voice coming from my within. A voice, that always exclaims me to do something that is out of track, uncommon for this world and unacceptable by others and I very firmly strangle that voice many times in past just because I fear of being out of track, fear of being lost.

            Anyways, the same old debate started, "a debate of me against me." Of course it was a debate of two different persons that live in the same body- One of them was "Practical Me", who sets his limits always and the other one was the "Virtual Me", who always breaks that limit and offer me to fly beyond the limits. And the debate goes on like this, let me take you to the live debate competition:

Practical Me: "One should know his limits and expand his legs upto which his blankets allows him to do otherwise its his complete loss"

Virtual Me: "Limit is what made for the losers by the winners, so don't tell me about limits. Even when someone says that The Sky is the limit, It's wrong, if sky is the the limit then why there are footprints on moon."

Practical Me: "You 're insane, one shouldn't cross his limits, its always made for the ease of comfort. Being in the limit can never take you in trouble and you can easily succeed. On the other side of the fact, if you're talking about looking beyond the limits, I guess you must have heard what the great Albert Einstein said, he said that “Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them.” So, don't try to be over-smart and let me do my work.

Virtual Me: "Oh! So now you are giving me example of Albert Einstein, in that case you must have heard what Robert Fritz said, and if you didn't as I expect from a dumb like you, let me tell you what he said, he said that, “If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.” So, don't you try to be smarter than me, next time if you think of talking such a waste, think twice"

Practical Me: "You know what, you seems to appear funny for me, you are miles away from reality and practicality, life is not about just talking of quotations passed by great people, life is about doing, what one can do. Its not what we think just going to be happen, many things play their role in deciding your deeds and whatever limits us, we call it fate. Did you got it"?

Virtual Me:  "Wow, I don't believe how a person like you is existing in this universe. You have now started talking about fate, can anybody tell me what the hell is this fate for heaven's sake, I really don't find it anywhere on earth. Is it the name of an inert gas or a new cancer bacteria? Please Mr.Smarty, just tell me, what you're gonna do is being decided by fate and shortened by limits, then what's the need to torment yourself, just go and sleep, your fate will do all your works and the remaining thing are completed by your limits. Isn't it?"

Practical Me: " Ha Ha Ha, very funny, you know what, who the hell on earth do care about your views about my works, I'm gonna do what I want, I know my limits and I'll definitely succeed in achieving what I want. You just shut your mouth and let me think something in my limits to write on my blog."

Virtual Me: "Fine, go ruin you life. If you don't care about my views, then why on earth I always think to make your work better, just leave you bloody कुँए का मेंढक."

 And this kind of debates goes-on inside my mind for minutes and in this chaotic situation I forgot my burning ideas that I'd got to write in my blog today and just made it as a funny conversation. As I always do, this time also I strangle my Virtual Me's voice and wrote nothing legendary. You people must be wondering what an insane creature is this guy but I can't help it out, I've always stuck in these kind of chaos. But next time I'll try to make compromises between my Real(Practical) and Virtual Me.

Now, with the promise to continue the Destiny-Writing I'm gonna stop my second day's journey too.
Waiting for your comments and suggestions.
 Once again thanking all my dear and near friends for your support and love.

AKSHAY RAJA 

My First Blog

Dear All,

Here I go with my first blog, but before writing anything I would like to tell you guys that while writing this I'm completely blank. I don't even know what I'm gonna write as my first blog. But one thing is sure that I'm really really excited today as I'm gonna be in the list (list of famous writers, celebrities and even a non famous man in real world but a celebrity on e-world) of bloggers.

 

        As you can see that the heading of my blog is Hope-Desire-Destiny, "Those who hope and have a burning desire in their within can create their own destiny". I'm a great believer of destiny but of that destiny which is made by me. Although I didn't achieved any big thing till date to say that "look, I've created my destiny" but I hope that one day the whole world will take me as an example of destiny-writer.

To be very frank and straight, I've been an average student from school days but a little bit different from common students. I did everything that satisfied my soul rather than to get certificates and medals or to show-off on behalf of the world. "I perform for myself not for the audience". I believe that if you're making yourself happy by your deeds, you can make the entire universe happy.

 

For being a beginner blogger, I want  to stop my desires of writing here and hope for your attention and comments and will definitely continue the enthusiasm of destiny-writing.